A city full of people, so full of desires.

The city is huge, full of pretentious people, malicious ones lurk in every corner and pick-pockets are amongst us all. We must be alert, we must not be distracted. But the streets are filled with beautiful people that we simply cannot take our eyes off from. Damn. Why do people still stare, why are people attracted to gorgeous people? Simply because, we are humans, we all have feelings and desires. Similar to animals, we all "select" from the masses, the fittest and the strongest as our partners. We want the best for ourselves but the difference apart from the animals, is that we follow our feelings aside from the physical attributes of our "ideal" partner. We must feel that mutual attraction in order for the relationship to work, to flourish. A beautiful face, does not guarantee a faithful soul nor an absolute lover. What everyone desires in a relationship is a fair trade. Mutual exchange of emotions, trust, adventures, ambition, dreams, vision, care and last but not the least sex, come on let's be honest. What's a relationship without sex man? Well, it's not like our relationship revolves around it but it is part of it. It's call love-making for a reason, the ability to attract, to seduce, to make love, to create desire.

Too many people, too little time, i cannot possibly try out each and everyone of them to find the right one. Well, i really believe that, when it's time, love will find you. Just don't wait till i'm all grey sitting on a wheelchair, wheeling myself to buy some ice-cream from Sheng-shiong.

Love you.

Love is indeed, patience.

I know that somewhere out there, you're lonely too.

Show me some kind of sign,

and let me find you.

I know how it hurts

and i am glad that we're not the only ones.

How can we learn to trust again?

How will we grow together?

I don't want my love for you to ever die.

I want to be sure that i am ready.

I want you to have the best.

I love you, so i'll wait.

While waiting,

I will learn,

I will seek truths,

I will improve on myself,

I will be perfect for you.

Tackling my issues head-on.

This few days, i've discovered a lot of qualities about myself.

Understand my strengths and weaknesses and learning how to make the best out of myself.

Well, i came to terms that no one is perfect and can never be,

and am consoled at the fact that we are made special and unique.

Each and everyone of us are made to go through various kind of obstacles in life,

be it in the area of friendships, relationships, family issues, personal problems, etc.

We are thrown out there in this dog eat dog society to fend for ourselves, to be resilient, to survive.

Afterall, what does not kill, does makes one stronger.

Problems that i've kept long in the closet are resurfacing, and issues that i thought i solved are actually not. As i'm sorting out the mess and reorganizing my life, along the way, i found fond memories of people and moments forgotten. I stood still for a moment of reminisce and felt time travelled back to when i was a kid. My childhood. The playgrounds. The laughter. The smell of fresh grass. The smell of innocence and bliss. That i once had. Did not follow me to my adulthood.

When i snapped back, i understood how all this had inspire me and build me up to be strong to continue to search, to fight and find back that joy, that youthful energy, gleeful self and enthusiasm. In my dreams, i am inspired. In my art, i create. In my heart, i believe. In life, i am happy.

What is your goal in life? I just want to be, happy. :)

Why try to change me now?

I'm sentimental

so i walk in the rain

I've got some habits

even i can't explain

I go to the corner

and i end up in spain

Why try to change me now

I sit and daydream

I've got daydreams galore

cigarette ashes

There they go on the floor

I go away weekends

leave my key in the door

Why try to change me now

Why can't i be more conventional

People talk

and they stare

So i try

But they can't be

because i can't see

my strange little world

just go passing me by

So let people wonder

Let 'em laugh

Let 'em frown

you know i'll love you

till the moon's upside down

Don't you remember

i was always your clown

so why try to change me now

So let people wonder

Let 'em laugh

Let 'em frown

you know i'll love you

till the moon's upside down

just you remember

i was always your clown

Such a beautiful song, for a beautiful soul. I just want to be happy and indulge myself in a lifetime filled with joy and excitement. I know i can never be that way always but at the very least, i want to fully savour the good times, the essence of happiness, the occasional grief and melancholy. Like some people, we do think the same and i know i was never alone.

"...as long as we exist, death is not here. And when it does come, we no longer exist."

If you don't know how to die, don't worry; nature will tell you what to do on the spot, fully and adequately. She will do this job perfectly for you, don't bother your head about it.