北极熊。

世界上的人都在追逐爱情，可是爱情就跟北极熊一样，

隔着镜头，觉得它很可爱，

实际靠近它，被它狠狠踩过一脚，就知道什么叫做痛到想死。

风信子的花语：當它枯萎死了，再次開花的方法

风信子的答案：把枯萎花，剪断，再次赋予花朵重生新生命

在面对自己感情內心 失去了或分开了，

別让自己永远活在过去, 別让过去回憶，永远牽伴着自己,

勇敢放开自己，给予自己新的生命 ,

也给予別人机會一起來参与全新的未来。

生气是好事啊，生自己的气才有改变自己的。

男人, 男人。

1. 好男人，多数是丑的。

2. 英俊的男人，多数很坏。

3. 又英俊又好的男人，多数搞同性恋。

4. 又英俊，又好，又很正常的男人，多数已经有老婆。

5. 不英俊，但是好的，没有钱。

6. 不英俊，但是好的，又有钱的男人，多数以为你爱他们，是为了他们的钱。

7. 英俊的男人，没有钱，要和你交朋友，是为了你们的钱。

8. 英俊的男人，又不太好，但是很正常的，多数认为你不够漂亮。

9. 认为你是漂亮，又是正常的男人，虽然温柔又好，但多数不敢约你出去。

10. 有点钱，有点英俊，有点正常，对你有点好，又是没有老婆的男人，从来不采取主动来约你。

11. 不采取主动的男人，女人只好采取主动，这一下子可完了，他们以为你很cheap， 不值得娶你做老婆。

I miss you.

"Love and affection,

it seems as though you're my only infection.

You listened and asked no questions.

All you gave was patience."

Sometimes, i love you, this three words are overused and meaningless.

To a point where i feel,

that I miss you, this three words would reach you.

Sometimes i wished that god would grant me power,

to turn back time,

so i could slow down and play to all our favourite parts together

and pause them.

I pray everyday in my sleep that may god grant me wisdom.

To understand the wonders of life.

That my dreams would realize,

a way to reality.

That my love,

would one day return.

Too much angst and sadness, i'm sorry.

I miss you.

The frozen waters.

You know the feeling of awaking into a new feeling, not in a good way but waking up feeling tired and with the thought that life could be more meaningful, more treasured? It's almost like spring the day before but suddenly when i awake from my slumber, it's already winter. The world's covered in snow.

Somehow, as i stare out of my window, i realized that how quiet and serene the world can be during winter. I finally came out for a walk. Everyone around is protected by warm knitted garments, feeling all cosy and wrapped like a hug. The people warm their hearts by drinking hot tea, as their lips kissed on the porcelain cup. As i see couples strolling down the white-washed streets, they held their hands together, their fingers intercrossed.

I turned away, looking back towards my home, my heart, suddenly hollowed.

I could not understand. Did i sleep too long to pass the seasons, or i just had my mind on too many things, too many worries, how tos, maybes and forgot how to enjoy through the other seasons? I think i was stuck somehow, somewhere, not sure why. Like i recalled, losing a huge part of myself, refusing to remember what and who it was. It felt like, i've just lock this part of me and threw the key away, not wanting any of those memories to resurface. Don't ask me why can't i throw them away. It's a part of me.

I stand, 3 feet away from my door. I stood there sliently for a while with my eyes tightly closed and as i felt the cold breeze in my face, i slowly ease and opened my eyes. I see this sparkly flares, little shimmering dusts while opening mid way. My eyes squint a little as i held my head high staring in the face of the sun. I smiled.

As i turned to look down from the sun, i let out a huge sigh, still smiling. Acceptance. The sun warmed my soul. I recalled that it has always been there, regardless. Through the hard times, the good times, it has and will be there, unless the world comes to an end. I know that i can rely on the sun after the rain, during the cold winter and after the isolation in the house. It's just about whether, i am willing to take that step out towards it that makes my life light up.

I turned to the pile of snow and remembered a phrase, it goes, "If life gives you lemons, make the best lemonade out of them." I chuckled as i walk towards the pile of white and started sculpting. I made castles, unicorns, snowmen and bears. Created a dreamland, my winter wonderland. It took me the entire day, i was exhausted but it was all worthwhile. The people around the district came around my place, took pictures and exclaimed about how much they've love my masterpiece. Instantly, i brought life to the town that winter. I was glad, in fact, extremely happy.

Quickly, Spring sprung suddenly.

My "dreams" melted away slowly. The white will be washed. The flowers and leaves will grow. The sun will still shine but the winter will go. As i look out from my window, day by day, the surrounding blossomed, in my heart, i secretly wished for winter.

I love you.

1... 2... 3... 4...

I'm usually extremely good at looking for things, i've got this uncanny ability finding stuff. But when it comes to you, just where exactly are you hiding?

I'm excited, at the same time, scared.

Close.

"You were so close. If only you'd taken just one more step..."

Pon & Zi.

Wedding Dress - Taeyoung (BIGBANG)

Unrequited love.

"A Mighty pain to love it is,

and 'tis a pain that pain to miss;

But of all pains, the greatest pain

It is to love, but love in vain."

The Rootless tree and the 9 crimes.

Leave me out with the waste this is not what i do.

It's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you.

It's the wrong time for somebody new.

So fuck you,

and all we've been through, i said leave it.

It's nothing to you and if you hate me, then hate me so good that you can let me out.

Let me out of this hell when you're around.

Let me out.

Let me out.

Let me...

Rootless tree & 9 Crimes - Damien Rice

Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

Confused.

Son: “You and dad, when you both first met, you liked each other at first right?”

Mom: “Yes, we did.”

Son: “Then when did you realize that you love each other?”

Mom: “Hmm, I don’t know, I guess, we knew each other for a very long time.”

Son: “Does it mean that if you love somebody for a very long time, you’ll fall in love with him?”

Mom: “No, no. it doesn’t necessarily mean that. I guess love is very difficult to understand. I mean, people talk about it all the time, they sing songs about it, write about it but when it comes right down to it. Nobody really knows where love comes from and where it goes.”

Son: “You’re confusing me.”

Mom: “Yes I am and love is like that.”

I wanna watch "My Sister's Keeper" till then, sweet dreams.

Music: Glosoli by Sigur Ros

Unspoken.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uy0HNWto0UY

Ugly things have their beholders too.

I decided to catch the movie, "The Ugly Truth" at the nearest cinema around my area and while waiting for my show, i headed for the arcade.

You know those machines, where you drop your tokens for a chance to catch some really adorable looking stuffed toys? Smart thinking, placing those really really retarded looking ones, cause they're just tooooo cute to resist? Yeah, i went for it. I think i'm a sucker for ugly retarded looking things.

I thought to myself, yeah, why not just give this machine a try, it's just a dollar for one try? It would not hurt even if you were to lose a dollar right? So, i decided to exchange my notes for a few tokens, total i had 8, a dollar for 2 tokens. I was the last customer at the counter. Last one at the machine, no one before me tried for the machine.

You know what they say about those machines right? Nah, you'll never get those! You pay thousands and you'll still end up with nothing, let me just buy you the toy! That machine is hopeless, don't waste your efforts!

I ended up with not one but two toys for 4 tries. Unbelievable for myself, i must say. I've never caught anything from those since the days of T-rex! You should see how happy and surprised i was!

Ugly truth was not as bad as they said. We cannot trust reviews. They're all from a writer's perspective and we cannot trust the writer word for word... so..... I conclude, if you wanna watch a movie, got get yourself a ticket and judge for yourself.

It's entertaining, hilarious, and true, true about how men perceive a relationship, how women are different and how ugly the truth can be. Nothing really in depth, but it's really a pleasant movie!

Love's just like the stuffed toys in that catching machine, you never know when you're gonna grab it. You just have to keep on trying. And it's when you least expected, it gets on the hook. It takes experience, a lot of patience, some luck, a lot of effort, but you know that the smile that you'll get at the end of it all, with that retarded looking toy in your hands, it's when you'll say to yourself, hey, it's all worth it.

Got a nice book today for my breaks, "A Child Called It", it's a touching book i heard. I've yet to read it.

Love, come find me.

Love's out the door, you say the things that hurt so bad, don't wanna try, just let it go. What's the use of holding on, when all we do is hurt our love?

No one said it was easy, it's a shame for us to part. Come back and haunt me, running in circles.

I said, you do not know me, you won't wear my chains. Think i'll start it over, no one knows my name, i'm tired of the weather. I'm flying to outer space. 

Where's Boston?

I could barely look at you. Light up, no choice, no voice but i will be right beside you dear.

Then you found me when no one else was looking. How you'd know i'll be here?

Now i hide again, come, come find me again, my seeker.

In the dark i wait...