Baby, I got you.

Young forever?

On this sunny sunday morning, the skies are blue and clear, the sound of cars, the smell of my room and as i type, my mind, filled with a million thoughts and questions.

I don't want to look back when i am all old and wrinkled only to regret the choices i have made for myself as a teenager. As fickle-minded for someone like me, i wanted to be everything and have my hands on every single possible job, i wanted to try, to experiment, to finally know what is really for me. I thought i've found my purpose in life and i thought i was ready to take off. But it seems like, life is constantly changing, constantly unsure and unpredictable. It's like waiting for an episode of "life" to upload before you can actually react to what's happening.

Well, after so many hurdles in life, i have come to terms with how it can be so cruel to you at one point and at another to be so comforting and uplifting. It's like a hot and cold thing going on and it can sometimes drives me crazy.

I keep asking myself questions like, why are we even created? And what purpose do we have on this earth when our final destination in life is, death. We do not live to die, right? And that is why, probably, religion is created. Was it even real to begin with? No one has proof, no one is standing up for what they believe in anymore. Everything is unstable and pretentious.

There are so many things in life that i am dying to discover. I'm not sure if i can live till that day to see this earth crumble before my very eyes. To see god, descend from heaven on judgement day. To see the end of war and the birth of eternal peace.

You know, sometimes, it is so much easier to just not care and quit. But it's just too sad.

I finally understand why some people chose end their life. Cause living can be quite a chore and after a while, you don't even know what the heck you're living for. Money? Fame? Love? All this do not last, you know it. But you still want it and you don't know why. Cause everyone is after these? Like someone has an iphone makes you want to get one too? When someone is popular and famous, it makes you think that, hey, i can be and i want to be like that person. But you know, all this, cannot be forever. The ones with unanswered prayers are people who have given up trying.

These people have nothing. No goals, no dreams. Even if they do have, or rather once had, they've given up. They are jaded. No one is listening. No one cares. How depressing.

I want to help these people, even at the expense of my own time and energy. Because the world really is not that dull, i chose to believe that it is not that heartless. It's the environment and people that you're with. More importantly, it is all in the mind. I know i can't save the entire world and i only chose to help those who really want to help themselves.

Everyone at a certain point in life, can get a little selfish and self-absorbed. We cannot blame them for it. It is the better for themselves, to protect their interest and to somewhat put up a front or a motive behind why they are like that. It can be disgusting, yes, but like animals, we all fight for survival. I hate to say this, but it's a dog eat dog society out there. The battle of the fittest, the strongest shall prevail.

Without support, without a team of strong fighters, your herd would probably be eliminated by your enemies. I hope to build a strong team, a group of excellent fighters, each skilled in their own area of specialty. A fortress for all potential talents to be nurtured and moulded.

Mixing around with like-minded people makes me feel great. It empowers me as an individual.

And i also think that once in a while, it's good to have some pressure, so one can be stronger and more resilient during crunch time.

As the days go pass, i am slowly discovering and unraveling the answers to life. You have one time to be young, to live a fabulous life, love someone, love life, dance till you die, be young forever. Smile at every mistake you make, because there is still time to change. Learn to ignore people's bad comments on what you personally believe in because sometimes, they just want to get you down and out. Stand up strong and fight like you're young.

Never Ever.

I am me and you are only you,

We live our different lives

But still have the same vision

All the same, what shape and size we are,

we keep on moving on,

that's what life's all about

I see flowers bloom by your side

and waiting for the sun

it is the sign of hope, an image of our fate

Sun sets where ever you may be

and rising up again

But the sun i see only sits in dark space lighting up your world

Break the silence i'm feeling deep inside

shooting stars will light our worlds apart

Wishing we can be together, you and me as one forever

I want to chase the seasons on the move

Want to smell the rain changing into snow

Everything i want to do with you is still in the future

This moment in time, be my dream keeper.

A city full of people, so full of desires.

The city is huge, full of pretentious people, malicious ones lurk in every corner and pick-pockets are amongst us all. We must be alert, we must not be distracted. But the streets are filled with beautiful people that we simply cannot take our eyes off from. Damn. Why do people still stare, why are people attracted to gorgeous people? Simply because, we are humans, we all have feelings and desires. Similar to animals, we all "select" from the masses, the fittest and the strongest as our partners. We want the best for ourselves but the difference apart from the animals, is that we follow our feelings aside from the physical attributes of our "ideal" partner. We must feel that mutual attraction in order for the relationship to work, to flourish. A beautiful face, does not guarantee a faithful soul nor an absolute lover. What everyone desires in a relationship is a fair trade. Mutual exchange of emotions, trust, adventures, ambition, dreams, vision, care and last but not the least sex, come on let's be honest. What's a relationship without sex man? Well, it's not like our relationship revolves around it but it is part of it. It's call love-making for a reason, the ability to attract, to seduce, to make love, to create desire.

Too many people, too little time, i cannot possibly try out each and everyone of them to find the right one. Well, i really believe that, when it's time, love will find you. Just don't wait till i'm all grey sitting on a wheelchair, wheeling myself to buy some ice-cream from Sheng-shiong.

Love you.

My Ninja way.

"I am here because i want to. This time, let me save you, naruto. I was always crying, and giving up before even trying. I made the wrong turns many times. But you helped me find my way and take me on the correct path. I've always chased after you. I wanted to catch up with you. I wanted to walk beside you all the time. I want to be by your side, always. You've changed me. Your smile, is what changed me. That is why, i am not afraid to die... if it means that i can protect you. Because... i love you."

"Why? I do not understand. Someone so weak like you should not resist. Why fight me? Knowing that you'll... die."

"I stand by what i say. Because... that... is my ninja way."

It's been like 5 years and Naruto never fails to inspire me to dashed headstrong ahead for my dreams. 5 Years of growth, i'm glad to be part of his entire character development. I have learned so much from the episodes. I never thought that i would say this to any animation but Naruto, thank you. Thank you for shaping my character and thanks to you, i had always believed.

"Keep your eyes on beautiful objects, it helps you take away the pain. Pain is something we live with but one must not be engulfed by it's dark power. For it is tempting to tap into its reign, one must stay strong, one must believe, one must be steadfast and unshaken to the true purpose that we live for. We are imperfect but that does not mean that we cannot seek perfection, that does not mean that we cannot love, cannot be happy. Love has always been around, never had left, never will, unless you have given it up. Tear down those walls, trash down the barriers, the world wants to see the real you, the you that was once, an inspiring gleeful soul. The world is a black pit but the light in all of us is enough to illuminate the universe. Believe. Keep on believing."

The truth will set you free.

"Letting you fight alone, now that's pretty crazy."

"There'll be loads of people who won't be able to control their anger if you go alone and get killed. Don't bear this burden alone and don't give me any face. This fight belongs... to all of us."

"Don't be mistaken, we haven't come here prepared to die, we're fighting to live. All of that "protecting the world" nonsense is nothing more than a grand cause with a nice ring to it. We're fighting so that we can live, so that you can live and to protect everyone else from evil's grasp. Do not fall behind."

In this world, there is originally no such thing as the "truth" or a "lie", there are only cold hard facts regardless. Everything that exists in this world lives by mistakenly recognizing only the "facts" that are convenient for them as "the truth", this is because they possess no other way to live.

However, the powerless, who makes up the majority in this world, it is the facts that are inconvenient to their self-affirmation that are the entirety of the truth.

北极熊。

世界上的人都在追逐爱情，可是爱情就跟北极熊一样，

隔着镜头，觉得它很可爱，

实际靠近它，被它狠狠踩过一脚，就知道什么叫做痛到想死。

风信子的花语：當它枯萎死了，再次開花的方法

风信子的答案：把枯萎花，剪断，再次赋予花朵重生新生命

在面对自己感情內心 失去了或分开了，

別让自己永远活在过去, 別让过去回憶，永远牽伴着自己,

勇敢放开自己，给予自己新的生命 ,

也给予別人机會一起來参与全新的未来。

生气是好事啊，生自己的气才有改变自己的。