Friends?

If a person's character is unclear to you, look at his friends. There's a saying that goes, "Birds of the same feathers flock together." Well, it is absolutely true, yes, we have choices and in life we do mix around with the genuine and the fakes. Whoever it is, we learn a great deal from our friends around us and vice-versa.

Some friends can be a real pain in the ass but nevertheless, we do get hell a lot of fun together at times.

"Each friend represent a new world, a world possibly not born until they arrive in your life, and it is only by meeting this new friend that a new world is born."

Competence.

Everyone is at the unconscious incompetence level of learning wherever they first try something new. Not convinced? Watch a baby learning to walk. He doesn't know he doesn't know how to walk. He tries it because everyone else is doing it. When he learns, by falling, that walking isn't as easy as it looks, he reaches for helping hands. The instant he reaches for help, he moves to the next level of competency.

Food play.

The colour, Red, makes one hungry.

Eating with a pale blue plate, slows down your speed when eating food from it compared to other coloured plates.

When you swallow honey, it enters your blood stream within 20 mintues.

Chewing gums while peeling onions will prevent you from crying.

Girls have more tastebuds than guys.

An apple, onion and potato will taste all the same with your nose plugged.

Don't play with your food! Food facts for the curious young one! Now you know the facts!

"We are drowning in information but starved for knowledge"

The perfect reject.

 

People are always in search of what they lack and things that they never had have before.

Ugly for beauty, loneliness for fame, poor for rich, insignificant for importance and the list goes on and on and on.

Perfection? Don't make me laugh. Nothing is perfect in this world. They say practice makes perfect. But why practice when nothing is perfect. Imperfection is absolute perfection. It is the flaws that makes us all perfect.

But why despite all this, people seek perfection in their appearance and to an extend that they undergo aesthetic surgery for that gorgeous new skin. Simply because people judge. Not by what they don't see but what the appearance is. Inner beauty? Don't make me laugh again. This world is cruel. No one talks about inner beauty. I believe that it takes a beautiful soul to make it up for a beautiful face.

Sadly, people judge, we cannot escape that. I don't blame people for that all. I understand. But it is unfair. Blame god for your face? Your birth identity? Your life troubles? And claim all credit for your achievements? We blame everyone except ourselves for the wrong doings and unfairness. We are humans and to err is human. We are imperfect. And since we are already imperfect, it makes us all perfectly normal why do we still seek more?

Greed? I don't think so. I think we seek more because of all the rejection.

Rejection is human's number one worst nightmare.

It is only when we are accepted there and then, we will stop seeking perfection. Because perfection never really exist, it's us living in denial all along after being rejected.

A wild free thing.

I never felt so emotionally empty in my life before.

Inside all of us......... is fear.

Inside all of us......... is adventure.

Inside all of us......... is hope.

Inside all of us......... is a wild thing. We have one in all of us.

Being alone for so so long made me numbed to certain emotion and sometimes the emptiness feeds in me. I feel so so cold right this moment. The only reason i live right this second is the hope that i still have within.

I'm not sure how long i can hold that for but i will as long as possible.

I don't want to die but i smell death nearby, lurking in the corner trying to take me down anytime i give up. I won't. I am afraid i might lose it. I will fight to my last breath like what daddy did.

I am furious but i have no choice but to obey.

I want to break free, everyone talks about freedom but what is it exactly? Freedom is independence fueled with free-will and dreaming can be limitless and impossible things can be made possible. Freedom is the air in the sky, the waves in the ocean and the scent of sakura blossoms.

Freedom is all the happy things in life, a kingdom that where happiness and hope is free.

"Freedom is making the right choice when there's no one to stop you."

Childish heart.

I might not understand your pain, i might not know how bad it is but i just want to let you know, that hope still exist. Do not give up on life my friend.

I don't know where i can find that, how to keep that but you just have to search deep within your heart, when all's used to be great. Where before it all started. Go back to the beginning of it all. I know you can't talk about it. You've bottled it all up that now it is exploding. Take one deep breath for yourself right now, and let go of it all.

We have to be responsible over our actions as adults, though occasionally we do act like children, there's no wrong with that. We're all children at heart, it's just that only our bodies grow bigger, our heart, not any older.

Let the inner child speak sometimes.

"There's nothing sadder in this world than to awake on Christmas morning and not be a child."

Disappointment and it's effects.

Disappointment is the feeling of dissatisfaction that follows the failure of expectations to manifest. Similiar to regret, it differs in that the individual feeling regret focuses primarily on the personal choices that contributed to a poor outcome, while the individual feeling disappointment focuses on the outcome itself.

Disappointment effect, provides false expectations of perfection in life and prevents people from achieving a healthy self-identity. 

And when we're all helpless, lost, the only solution we have to make it all better is cry.

We cannot solve certain somethings and force certain somebody to like you or do something for you but we can sure feel a tad better by crying.

It's alright, sometimes, you have to let it all out.

Enough, is enough.

"We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we already have done." The unseen, is the potential and untapped capabilities. People cannot see them but i'm sure they can be felt. Nevertheless, it disheartens me that some people do not see the value of another as much as how one view him or herself.

They say, seeing is believing. However we humans enjoying dreaming too, won't we want those dreams turn into reality? We plan for our future, tell dreams to your loved ones about how you are going to succeed one day being a famous somebody, driving a posh car, living in a huge mansion, leading the high life.

I believe that when we gain something, we will always lose something in exchange. Vice- versa.

When we lose a loved one to death, we gain strength to live on and we gain the valuable lesson of treasuring what is around you.

When we gain wealth, we lose our identity as being poor and we probably lose privacy due to the wealth we've gain, imagine the media and press placing you in the limelight 24-7, i mean if that is what you want, you'll probably gain that point.

We gain trust, we loosen our guard down.

We gain and love someone, we're willing to lose our life for that someone.

How funny it seems to me that even though we gain the whole world, we do not actually own it for eternity. So, how can anyone be truly happy? The pain an individual can go through to get all this will turn to nothing but dust? Hey, do not get me wrong, i'm not saying we should just slack all our life and sit at home on the couch and wait for money to drop from the skies. I admire determined and ambitious people but the point that i'm trying to bring across is, we fight so hard that we've sometimes neglect the simple things we have around us, that's we're constantly on the hunt for better alternatives. And why do we fight so hard for when all this cannot be brought to your grave? Satisfaction?

What is your reason for your fight?

Greed? Fame? Power? Or is it for your loved ones? For revenge? To prove someone wrong?

I think it's true, "Even if you've gained the whole world and have lost your soul with it, you've pretty much lost in the game of life."

It is about what you live for, fight for and what you stand up for that matters. The rest are just wallpaper. Life is your stage, give your best and put up a good show.

Solitude, i'll reflect my doings, i'll wait for your arrival to reign my heart.

Solitude, The strong waves, the endless thoughts and reflections of life. We seek answers within ourselves endlessly through the years of our life. We should just find them within ourselves. They live in us, we just have to keep it safe inside, it's deep within, the light in your heart.

Do not allow yourself to be imprisoned by any affection. Keep your solitude.

The day, if it ever comes, when you are given true affection there will be no opposition between interior solitude and friendship, quite the reverse.

It is even by this infallible sign that you will recognize it.

What i must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it. It is easy i the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great person is one who is in the midst of the crowd keeping perfect sweetness  the independence of solitude.

If i lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Head hurts from all my thoughts.

I do get emotional sometimes. I would never dare to say that i am the most romantic person on earth but i can be quite sweet. No, i am not selling myself. I'm just describing what kind of person i view myself as. Of course, writing from my perspective can be rather biased but i promise to say nothing but the truth.

I am ambitious and i believe strongly in doing the impossible. Simply because i love proving people wrong. I feel that i can appear to be rather controlling and arrogant to certain people at times but really i'm not that sort. I don't know why am i writing all this but i'll finish it anyway since i'm at it already.

I try to be nice to people whom i do not like. I love to look at how people talk, walk, dress and laugh. My friends think that i am funny but i just love to see my friends smile and them being happy makes me feel happy too, totally at the expense of my image and happiness. I care a lot for people and get hurt easily by people. Sometimes i feel that it does not pay to be nice. Moreover, you can't please everyone.

Then why can't we just please ourselves? Would not it be selfish? But who cares?

I feel sad how the world thinks about certain issues sometimes. Is there a way to change things? Apparently, not i guess.

I go into this whole josiah talks to josiah Q & A interview sessions occasionally, when i question myself and answers my own question after thinking it through and reasoning.

Religion has been one of the few topic that i keep going back on and on again.

OWWWW, my head hurts already, urgh,  i just want to sleep.

Sigh...

Come, sit with me will you?

Don't cry, pick yourself up again.

I still have dreams yet to come true. I have so much more to learn, never too young, never to old. I have yet to visit the world, to see the Northern Lights, to see polarbears roll around in the snow, the world's vast, the feeling is fresh.

Come on, come here, sit down with me.

I'm right here, i will not leave, i promise that i will not say a word and all i want to do is to listen to you. Do whatever you want, just don't leave me.

Oh Life, I have questions.

The happiest looking people are not truly the happiest.

The facade they put up, the fake smiles, all so real and believable.

Who cares. No one bothers about if others are happy or not. In this world we live in, few care about the people around us, they care only for themselves, me, myself and i alone.

Is it worth it to sacrifice your own happiness for someone else's? Is it true that it never pays to be good? What about the defenders of the light? Do they exist to fight against darkness? We are all flawed, imperfect. We don't understand life, we are constantly searching for life's true purpose.

Is it a test for us? Maybe it's god's test for us to prove our self-worth? Maybe we are all angels on a trial test and he wants to see if we can prove ourself worthy of our talents and character. I don't know. I want answers. I want proof. I need more faith.

Love life and life will love you back, love people and they will love you back.

How true is that? What if all ends up to nothing but disappointment? Who's responsible? Where do we go when our life is up? Is there peace on the other side? Where do the bad people go? Hell? How are they judged? I'm curious. Is technology the main reason for the downfall of humans in future? God created science did he? Why can't we look at the world with our hearts instead of our eyes, cause we judge through this deceitful pair. What if we all have the same appearance, like a black shadow with no features, will we not be judged on beauty but character? What if we can live forever? Too many what ifs.

Is death the only way to get my answers? Or is it time's up for me to search for my answers?

I want to know.

Love, come find me.

Love's out the door, you say the things that hurt so bad, don't wanna try, just let it go. What's the use of holding on, when all we do is hurt our love?

No one said it was easy, it's a shame for us to part. Come back and haunt me, running in circles.

I said, you do not know me, you won't wear my chains. Think i'll start it over, no one knows my name, i'm tired of the weather. I'm flying to outer space. 

Where's Boston?

I could barely look at you. Light up, no choice, no voice but i will be right beside you dear.

Then you found me when no one else was looking. How you'd know i'll be here?

Now i hide again, come, come find me again, my seeker.

In the dark i wait...